First Fatherless Day
This morning I noticed that I was very short tempered. Tiny things that wouldn't normally bother me were making me red hot mad in an instant. After snapping at the boys for a very minor infraction I stepped myself back. Whoa, sister. What's up? Then it hit me. All at once. It started as that familiar sweeping feeling of sadness that literally takes my breath away. Then the sort of scratchy, antsy feeling inside my chest followed. Like I wanted to run away but couldn't and it wouldn't help anyway. Ah. It's Father's Day. My first without one. A father, I mean. Last Father's Day I gave him a really great insulated water bottle to take with him to the golf course. So he could stay hydrated and healthy. I'd been nagging him to drink more water. Little did we know he was already sliding into stage four by then. Has it really been nearly a year since this all began? I've been ignoring it all w...